Goings and comings and other such confusions

Goodness, how time does fly... and as most of you know, so did I.
It is a strange being here again after my trip home. I have to keep reminding myself that I actually did come home, it has been so easy to slip back into life here. Here feels like home too, and I'm moving in just over a week. Everything seems quite surreal at the moment. Like I have stepped sideways slightly from real life. School doesn't feel finished despite the farewells, my Oki-life doesn't seem to be winding down. It's the same as any other change. I never believe in it until a significant amount of time after it has happened. I still tell people I am 23 and then look confused at the sound of it which must make an odd impression.
It was lovely to see those of you that I saw when I was home. There wasn't time for much just being, most of it was spent catching-up. The catching up process feels like trying to get back to the level of understanding that allows one to just be. Very deep I am. But truly it was great to switch of the "heads, shoulders, knees and toes (knees and toes)" that has been playing on a loop in my head for months and talk to people who actually knew me. So yeah. Thanks all.
Today I saw the mayor for the goodbye talk. It was very like the hello talk, incomprehensible and hot. He talks like Animal from the Muppets.
Must go and keep cleaning my wee house. It is pretty clean really, what with me becoming obsessive about vacuuming and scrubbing the floors/bench/stovetop/etc. this past year. I wonder if my new love of shiny surfaces and order will survive a more active social life.
Next time I write here it will be from my new home (‘new home’ seems a bit of an oxymoron, it takes a bit more than setting up my sewing machine and a few sleeps to make it home – maybe I will shock the neighbours and have a flatwarming).
It feels strange to be homesick for New Zealand and nervous about Hamada and sadly about leaving Oki and ridiculously overheated all at once but that’s me just now. Thinking of you all much.